Which Is Me

Type A - Type B which is me?

At times I feel so free that only B
Could be meÖAnd then Iím pulled by A
Into a centrifugal force of fear and joy
A roller coaster ride from within
Pulling me along twisted curved rails
Rising up toward the sky
And whirling downward into an abyss
Of fearless joy - out of control
And yet aware of the coupling rails
Holding me earth bound in defiance
Wishing for death and hoping for life
As my stomach forces vomit into the heavens
And I cry with joyous tears to a blind and deaf god
Am I A or B